12/24/2016
When I opened FLO I called it "My love letter to Augusta."
True, I didn't the have the money to buy you flowers cards and candy, but what I made for you babe, was from the heart.
True, I couldn't take you to the finest places, but I served you something they couldn't...love. And if you paid attention, you would have tasted it.
See baby, I wasn't like them other cats that hit and run. That cheated you, nah doll, I tried to encourage you, motivate you empower you and support your growth. ... you know, all the stuff you keep asking for..
I believed you when you said you "Had potential... " but I would learn that it's just one of those things you say but don't mean or understand...
I saw how you treated my love letter to u Augusta, how you laughed and showed your friends, you didn't appreciate my penmanship, or the fact I literally transcribed every ounce of love I had for you on paper.
in fact, it's almost like you hated me for actually loving you the way you always said you wanted to be loved.
I've learned. over the years, that people won't always love you like you love them. I learned that the best love you have to offer might not be enough to someone else.
FLO is my love letter , with check boxes to Augusta, asking "do you like me?? ( ) yes ( ) maybe ( ) no.
I saw my letter crumpled in the trash,
and when I asked about it you just laughed.
You know, I grew up in a small town just like you.
So I'm acutely familiar with what small towns do.
And I'm also well acquainted with how people forget, about the love they ignored during times of regret. and that a life being bitter is nothing to accept... so I will step back a step, and wish you the best...
even if it ain't with me... Cause I love you bigger than my ego.
I want to thank you Augusta, for being so hard to love. Because in loving you I become smarter, stronger, wiser, harder, tougher, and better. Loving you made me better, not bitter.
So I'm closing the rings on my loose leaf note book as I rub my hands across its blue denim face. I'll sheath my pen, and pack my heart away for a time.
sigh... I wrote a love letter to a city.. and for a brief min.. she was with it!!! How bout that?
IF YOU LOVED US, AND WHAT WE DID ... COME BY AND SAY GOODBYE ...
FLO, the Finale...