12/31/2025
Let’s wrap this s**t up. Because “What was that!?”
This year beat my ass. Like, straight out the shower!
Highest highs. Lowest lows. No in-between.
I lost damn near everything this year—being homeless, yes homeless!!! My truck engine seizing, having my heart broken like shattered into a million pieces..I lost my damn mind. August 8th is burned into me. I’ll never forget that day.
But here’s the truth I had to face: you can’t build anything solid on a cracked foundation. Some of it felt like loss, but it was really removal. I had to strip s**t down—people, places, habits, comfort.
I had to move different, think different, and do things I’d never done before just to build it right this time.
And somehow, in the middle of all that chaos, I still had moments where I was happy. Really happy. Like really, really, really happy! LIKE is this really happening, happy! Feeling wanted. Feeling taken care of. BEING in LOVE. Feeling alive—even while everything else was falling apart.
The biggest lesson this year was LEARNING and UNDERSTANDING my non-negotiable something I was introduced to back in January on a first official date. He asked me and I honestly couldn’t answer, I was sitting there stuck like, mhmm I really don’t know. But, THIS YEAR, I learned real quick! I spent most of my life calling things non-negotiable, then folding just so I wouldn’t be alone. Just so I could say I had someone. Had friends.
No blame. No hate. Just awareness.
This year taught me that loving someone doesn’t mean you have to stay. That misalignment is enough of a reason to walk away. That choosing yourself doesn’t make you cold—it makes you honest.
I learned how to sit in discomfort instead of running from it. I cried more this year than I ever have in my life. Ugly cries. Silent cries. Feeling like I couldn’t breathe cries. Like I cried myself to sleep and woke up crying, whooo child!
But mostly, crying because I was tired of being strong.
But here’s the part that matters—
After everything I lost, I finally found myself.
I’ve never been this confident. This proud. This clear.
And for the first time in a long time, I’m not scared of what’s coming next.
I’m ready!
