04/24/2021
Super personal post here...
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Y’all, I have been struggling. As an artist and entrepreneur I’ve been struggling with feeling like I’m enough.
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It’s easy to sell self confidence and empowerment when the person in front of you is amazing and beautiful but a lot of the time it’s hard to see that in ourselves.
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So I struggle. I struggle with posting. I struggle with writing. I struggle with feeling inadequate and unhelpful because we’re inundated with words and images. And I struggle to think feel like I can make an impact in all the static.
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The truth is, the other night after I ate way too much of ‘s infused seafood boil, in an overzealous celebration of 4/20, I started feeling myself. Something in me got unblocked and I looked at my work.
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I went through recent stuff, through old stuff. I started finding things I really loved, a practice I don’t do often enough.
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I saw places that I’ve been to, locations I love and to which I keep returning. I saw colors and details I hadn’t noticed before.
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Then I saw the people who trust me with this beautiful task. I saw smiles and heads cocked back in laughter. I saw vulnerability. I saw fear and strength in consecutive shots. Sifting through your images made me recall stories of your disappointments and achievements.
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Each story is different but essentially the same. You’ve all taken your losses and lessons and have used them to propel you into something better, something that fits you just a little better than the previous situation.
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It made me proud. Knowing that you have all trusted me with the stories of your lives, the scars on your bodies, the laughter in your souls, raw and uncut vulnerabilities makes me realize that I have a place here. I have the ability to be impactful. I saw it in every one of your faces. For that one to four hours of work we do together, you trusted me with parts of your life that were fragile and painful, and personal - to create my art with. 😭
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And now I’m crying. So for anyone that feels the way I felt, or getting to feeling maybe once a week (??). Continue in comments...